got physical?

we all know what this means: ye olde finger up ye olde bung hole. we think about it on the way there. will he forget? would we remind him? does he look forward to it, or does he resist? will there be a smudge spot left on the paper afterwards to be scraped up by an orderly? will he, this time, find a brocoli-sized nub in there to be burned out, sliced up and scare the be-jesus out of us? will it be time for that loathsome unit, the black snake? trapped for days with nauseating gulps of Gator Aid, CVS enemas and a nurse reminding us that 'the drugs are awesome'. you think about it, all of it, if time is on your side or if it's not and you realize, as the clock winds down, that these visits will increase. that bad news will begin to happen to your body. that fear will intrude on sane reflection, that on a sunny day it might rain. so far i've been lucky in the doctor/diagnosis department. for the last 10 years i've had the same primary with the same 'you're fine' salute. he's thorough. he spends more than the alloted HMO hurry-up, he has seen me through minor worries and reads me like a country doc. like the honest auto mechanic who gets the difference between silly and serious, my guy never advocates procedures or drugs that won't heal or help. sadly, he has transfered to Florida. good for him, but not good for me. my most recent annual is with a new dude who has, as the President might say, a 'funny name'. as soon as he comes through the door to check me out in my reverse blue-green house dress, my heart jumps. this guy drop dead resembles the phony interns i've seen on porn sites. the ones who 'examine' their hot young patients, heart, lungs, glands, only to eventually jerk them off into oblivion. the 'patients' mildly resist until they let go all over the place. i'm doubly in doubt about my new guy when i notice his long eyelashes and borderline lisp. 'uh oh' i'm thinking, 'the prostate check is gonna be weird'. he snaps on the rubber glove like Nurse Ratched and is in and outa there like a mouse to the cheese. whoa! the doc has skills. he wraps up the look-see, says i'm in good shape and informs me that in one year's time he, like my previous primary, will be moving on. i'll have to hunt and peck another fella (or woman?) to do the probe based on a name, a funny name.